The value of a friend

Yesterday I had a moment where i had a breakdown regarding a friend thats no longer here. I knew this day was coming since in a week and a half it makes it the 1 year anniversary, which is also a day after my birthday. I had read up on his myspace yesterday and there is this INTENSE post from his brother regarding some fake people trying to make themself feel better. I was blown away, like blown away. Its almost dangerous. There is a post prior regarding who I believe he thinks his friends were. Im glad im in there, and it just made me cry. You know loosing someone is like an empty void in your heart. No matter who it is. While we do our best to move on, and pull ourself together and do what WE think that person would want us to do. There is always going to be that void just missing. We rememeber them by the good times and even the bad and how that person was always there through the thick and thin. There is always going to be that void, the memorys that we will cherish, but I will never underestimate the value of a TRUE friend.

On that subject, I have many friends, like many many... but very few that I would call if i needed something. Needed someone to talk to, needed someone that shoulder to cry on. In fact, I can count on one hand. These are people that stuck by me through thick and thin, and together we are perfect in our imperfections. I won't name them here, they know who they are. Te amo.

By the way, today is not a sad day at all. It is a day to celebrate :) Every day is. There are many things to be thankful for! Today Fergie and Paulina Rubios albums came out! Of course I cant afford both, but i know which one im buying. Also, another place went up for sale today in my complex which is nice.. they are asking 385. The last single unit like ours went for 385 as well.. and ours looks nicer and we payed 20k less than that asking price.. so whats that mean to me? Well if this one sells which i dont doubt it would.. = instant equity!